Days · in · the · Life

Not much to say...I'm pretty content with life. I do need somewhere to live for next fall. So whatever...but everything else is good...I'm seeing a guy and hes amazing....bad thing is he went to costa rica and won't be home til march...but he says im the first one he wants to call. And he is sending me postcards...hes only been gone for 6 days but i can't wait for the first one to get here...I hope he is having fun...I'm totally jealous he gets to completely miss the michigan winter....jerk...lol well thats really all. Please if you read this and care about me give me a call we need to hang out! :)

I need a job that pays decent at LEAST $8 and up i found a fedex job but the hours are 3-7:30 am...thats right am....i dont know if i could do that with school...but it pays 10.30....then 10.80 after 90 days.....god...that would be awesome...but its also a 20 minute drive... I dont know i just need something that can pay the bills and right now thats looking about 600$ a month...so i would like to make $200 a week so i can have some extra cash to save....but we shall see....I'm excited for school and everything to start....but...the monetary end of it isn't panning out as well as i was hoping for...any advice or job offerings are welcome :) please let people know about me...im a good worker....will do pretty much anything within reason

Its funny to realize how much you have changed over a period of time. How many things you have been through and still made it out okay because of the people you chose to surround yourself with...how true is the the statement: guys come and go but friends are forever Although some friends aren't forever, they weren't real friends to begin with. So to everyone I love you. Thank you all for everything you have done it  has meant more to me than you will ever know.  Our bonds are strong and I hope has time goes on they will only get stronger.

Much love
Ash

It is true. There is something about me that is different, more determined. This is my year to wow everyone. I'm going to wow the people who had no faith in me and the one's that always believed. I'm going wow all the boys who used me and threw me away. No longer am I going to let other people measure my worth. I am the only person who can measure that accurately, because I am the only one who knows the true me. I'm the one person I can't escape from. So everyone can say what they must: I am a bitch or fat or stupid or not talented or whatever. But I don't have to listen, and I don't have to care. And guess what!? I don't care. Because I now that I am a beautiful woman, sure I can be bitchy at times but who isn't! This is my year to shine, and damn it, no one is going to take that away from me. Maybe I'll get a boyfriend (something I've been complaining about for a while now ;)) maybe I won't, but honestly who cares? Because recently...or pretty much always I chose losers...so maybe I should let a guy chose me for once. And if no one does...its not the end of the world. And you know what? It is rather liberating to realize that. And I am kicking myself for never realizing that until now.